WOES OF A BROKEN HEART
“Relationships are meant to be easy and if it’s not easy then there’s something wrong somewhere that needs to be fixed.” A wise man once told me. The trauma faced in the aftermath of ending a relationship is something many people underrate because it remains logged in your body, mind, and worst of all, your soul.With every sunrise and sunset, there’s a trauma fought in between because you’re looking for closure, grasping at straws and hoping you can make something out of them. The futile search for peace after a shattered heart and love is the kind of fight I wouldn’t wish on anyone. The people in those situations require compassion, empathy and to be heard. They do not want to hear how they messed up, how you saw it coming, how you advised them against it. That is all utter bollocks!! And very selfish because that increases the amount of time taken to heal as it makes them judge themselves. So Yes, my heart is broken and I’m losing hope! I’m losing genuine people and relationships, and I’m scared out of my mind! I don’t feel things much like I should or used too, I’m occasionally lying about how I feel or how I am it’s honestly too much for me I know I’m still young and many would say I haven’t seen anything yet but I’m really drained I am. Holding on by a thin string grasping onto any small happiness I get losing sleep over the smallest of things, worrying, overthinking, battling things. I don’t want to feel like this anymore I cannot share things because I’m scared or not sure about the result, I’m afraid to take risks, my fear of uncertainty is eating me up. My faith deteriorating every other day; I spend my days making up happy scenarios in my mind to have something to hope for. I’m really at my saddest, hitting the lowest (I think) and out of options and patience.
I NEED TO HEAL AND CRY AND BE HEARD
I NEED REASSURANCE AND LOVE.
BY KEMIGISA MARIA
